SAMANTHA(:

♥ Thursday, May 7, 2009

hey people, i no longer using this blog.
current blog: http://mylifestill-goeson.blogspot.com

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♥ Thursday, July 10, 2008

everything seems fine now. anw, even if there is i also dont wanna care le.
btw, i getting worster and worster. coming to sch later and later.
attendance going to drop like HELL. and at yr end cant take exam. haiis.

lesson start at 9 i come at 10.15.and only attended till an hr and 45min lesson nia. and off the day end.now at self access room norhs. later going somewhere else. together with shimin and apple.

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♥ Sunday, June 15, 2008

hey guys,
i decided to close this blog. and my new blog is up already.
msn also change alr. add me. i will give my new msn email to you guys.
and also,my blog address i wont be giving it to anyone.

i wont detele this blog as it has been one yr plus tgt with me alr. memories are all here.
i will keep it. and whenever i think of my past i wil be back to see again....
that all!
bye!

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♥ Saturday, June 14, 2008

ROARS!!

i'm back to blogging.
the programme for the day later on, is IT FAIR.

saturday.
sleep at 5am in the morning and wake up 9am in the morning.
4 hr of slp only. mainly bec:
1st: cousin room is FULL of cousins and noise.
2nd:i promise and agreed to wake tecky up.(:
just mainly for this two reasons. wake up, slack ard, watch drama, play viwawa and ended up, back to slp again.wake up at 7pm prepare and left to IT fair.LOL.
together, me and my 3cousins,zhanglin and ah hong without further delay,prepare fast and leave.and when the time we reach there, still have to search for carpark, and when we reach the IT fair, is already close. is execpted! but anyway...hahas! already come then what to do??
so we just went up to level 6 to look for my parents, and my aunt family. and slowly slowly...we come out of the exhibition hall and went down to level 4.as zhanglin wanna buy camera?? anw, she's just looking around hahas.then come xinyuan and ken. and also my uncle relatives. and so we are just standing at that level there talking. talk and talk .. but just gd i was also waiting for shimin and co to come down..after 10-20 min time, uncle relatives went off. and finally we go down to the main floor. standing there thinking of where to go.and at last,aunt and family went off 1st. they train home. then my parents follow us. i chase them out of the conventional hall to smoke, again while smoking i was waiting for shimin and co to come. but end-ed up, they smoke finish and they are not yet down so decided to leave. ): their 10 min can take you up to 45min....
and soon we get up the van and off we go. at first they say wanna go newton, and ended up my mum say go bukit timah that hawker center. and dad was sitting infront while ah hong is driving.along the way dad guide him how to go and the noise form the back is super duper nosiy! chatted alot of things during the jounery.ah hong thks for the chicken wings and the omelet. dad and mum thks for the satay and also the chicken wings. we stay put at there for an hr. and is already 12.and went i reach my cousin hse is already 1am. and slack again viwawa for awhile and i went out again at 2 plus. tgt with ferlin ahhong serene and cindy.we went near ps there. there is this cafe called: mr bean cafe.and went we reach there is alr 3. went there to watch the euro 2008.jinfa and jennifer was there too.(: order drinks and a basket of fries.cost me $11. wahaha! and i order this drink.and it is called : mickey mouse. quite nice luhs hahas.(:the match was a nice one.is greece VS russia.know what?i find it weird. the 6 of them is all above 20 and i m the only one who is 17..but who cares? i still sit there like nobody business.wahaha!=X then we slack till the whole match ended and the time is already 4.30?? we slack till 4.45 am and off we go..
reach cousin hse is alr 5.20am and i was so tired. so ended up, i went to slp immediately as isiz very tired. yea lor that's for the day!

friday.
nothing much.
sleep at 5am wake up at 2pm.
again viwawa-ing and watching drama.
at night went off to lot 1. went to the pasa malam. get alot of foods. and went back cousin hse also alot of foods.hahas(:

that all for the day lor.
hahas(:

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♥ Thursday, June 12, 2008

URGHHH!!!!!!BOREDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!
I'M BORED TO DEATH....
what to do?? haiis...

1 "so called" gd news to say through my blog??
err.. i have another blog.and the details of the blog will only be mine only personal things.*WAHAHA!!

now i'm staying put at my cousin hse.simply bec at home also nothing to do.
for this few days, i am just having mood swings. and is so bad can? yesterday before i even come to my cousin hse, i was at home the whole day.and yesterday my class peeps call me up. 1st was michelle.follow up jiajie. two of them only chat with me for awhile and they hang and go to slp le. bec they are working today at suntec, IT fair.hope everything go smoothly for them. soon shimin called. then apple kenny and last junde. five of us chatting over the phone. and yesterday that was the day where me and shimin laugh the most. been so long time since we laugh. because recently alot of problems occurs and is so irrating and frustating when the problem keep flashing through your mind.*URGH~ chat with them till two and i went off to chase my korean show. hello xiaojie.is a comedy drama. so funny. i did not slp through out the night just to chase this show and i watch till 9 in the morning and then went to get some slp and wake up at 1 plus. was viwawa-ing with my cousin all the way till 5 plus and i'm back to my show again. ETP people called. asking me whether i wanna make the jesery and it cost me $24. de is like freaking expensive.*SHOO!~ a bbq going on also and cost me $5. still considering all this stuff...

tuesday
i went to lot 1 and look for meifong tgt with shimin.
just gd went there to meet daddy and brother.
hahas. then apple called me. haiis dun wish to say le.. *sobsob
i almost went to commit sucide on that night.
i really almost do that.! shimin keep msging me what are you doing?
all i reply her was....gd bye tkcare.
i know i'm STUPID FOOLISH!
bec of a small matter i wanna do this.. but why isiz so hurtful? why?
you guys kp asking me not to think. i also wish that i won't go and think but...
THE PROBLEM KEEP FLASHING THROUGH MY MIND!!!
tell me how should i handle with all this problems? tell me... can someone tell me??
is so fucking irrating that all this problems are not solved.
as long as the problems are not solved, my everyday will be a misery 1.
what sin did i did in the past? why would i have all this problems? why am i as always the one who is suffering when i dun even want to??? why????
no ones knw the reasons. if i were to given a chance, i would rather choose not to come to this world.

anyway, how i wish i have tons of money now!
i wanna go for a long long overseas trip.
i wanna go and have a break.
i guess that i am having serious heart problem. but i choose to ignore it.

i shall stop my blogging. going back to my comedy!

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♥ Monday, June 9, 2008

me and my another two sisters are now facing the same problems.
and is always the SAME PROBLEMS!!! esp ME & SHIMIN.
what's wrong with you guys? can't we just like you all? isiz a fault/mistake to like you guys????
and what's the problem with us? are we so ugly till that we go out people will just keep staring at us with that kind of looks?? yes. we arent pretty. but at least we are true to our feelings when it come to relationship. no one is at fault. i can understand. but why isiz that always those girls that who tends to look so cute and prettier than us will also get to stand a chance first? and when you guys told us girls that you guys dont really go for looks. is that true?? i don't think so alright?? girls are always crying for guys, and guys are always giving that kinda of HACK CARE attitude.
anw, i also wish to make my stand clear. those ppl who know me well should know that how i am a person to you all. i'm just someone who always secretly like that person, and DON'T EXCEPT ANYTHING IN RETURN! wanting me to give up can but it will take me a long long time. saying all this dosent prove anything. but this is how i'm handling my feelings nor relationship with. and my cousin even told me this :" to refrain yourself from getting hurt, don't ever put in ur 100% feelings to it." and this is what she told me. but still, i can't do it.
no matter what, i still like to let my two sister from ite to know that no matter what, if you guys wanna cry, cry tgt.. alright??

went jurong point with shimin and co. after that we bus down to vivo. took us an hr?? on the way there. silent in progress! no talking but crying yes. when we change to the second bus,i did talk to jiajie. lols !~ get down the bus and go straight up to the roof top? i love that place so much! because i can get to relax at there.was talking to shimin due to her personal problem make her...hais dun say le. then went off to kopitiam as jiajie and co wanna eat. so went there. i was laughing like MAD!! so funny lol. slack there till 8 and we train back. the guys send me back home. cried again in the train..then after that we walked till 600+ de building there bec i get __ to call me then everything settle. erm, actually the guys wanna send me home. but bec half way through shimin walk off. i cant chase up bec of some personal problem. then aft ___ hang, apple called. she pei me chat from my aunt hse to my hse. ahahah! then again at night conferenc-ing.
secret gang peeps all in! but sad thing is all of them get to work only i nv in.. haiis. and they kp talking abt working stuff make me very piss off. bec i very sad cant work tgt with them.. haiis.
then nvm suddenly dakorkor call me then i talk to korkor talk till all of them hang up. wahahaa! ps ah guys haiis.. dunno la. all i can say is i'm very moody for the whole entire day. and very sad also..

WHO CAN HELP ME???? WHO WILL BOTHER ME????
WHO TO TELL?? HAIIS......HELP!!!!I GONNA CRAZY!!!!!!! ARRRRRRHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

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♥ Sunday, June 8, 2008

more photos coming up...(:

alright. just a short post.
was home the whole day yesterday. dinner didnt eat much no appetitate.
ard 11plus, jj called me up and asked me whether wanna go down anot? i say anything.
but when they come all the way till here, i couldnt go out. as my mum say is very late le.
so kind of them all of them actually come up to my hse and we chatted!(:
got rayDAKORKOR,shiminTWINS,kennyDADDY,jundeBROTHER and jiajieBIGEYEBALLMONSTER. sry guys make you all stand at my doorstep and talk to me....
and soon 1+ le. kennyDADDY and jundeBROTHER leave 1st. bec something happen then they all leave also.. sry guys and thks for accompanying me. all of them walk home bec no bus le... then aft they leave, i get meifongMUMMY to call me. i tell her how i feel. and hope that she would understand why i have this decision.. cry while chatting(: then after that i slp at ard 3plus. couldnt get to slp dunno why also.. keep tossing here and there. haiis.. then today morning rayDAKORKOR ring me up and say that he wanna pei me go relax. bec of the problems. hahas rayDAKORKOR so funny.he though i cried over the phone. kor, i didn't cry no point crying. i just die wake up only. i dun want to die for the 2nd time.is so hurting and painful. bec i know that you guys stil care for me and you guys will always be the one there.so not to worry, i wun cry to make myself suffer anymore!(:

i hope i will stand up.
bec i realise that my friends do worry and care for me.
and bec of them i really do have to stand up..
dear friends, i love you guys! you guys rocks!!!

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